Seizure

Mom had a Grand Mal seizure this morning that lasted 45 seconds. She was gray in color and her breathing was 10 breaths per minute. Justin and I arrived an hour after her seizure and she was sleeping, but her color was nice and pink and warm. Her breathing was 14 breaths she seemed relaxed. I sat on the bed with her and as I spoke she opened her eyes. She stared at me for a while like she was aware I was there. She slept on and off the two hours we were there. We spoke to the nurse about her condition. The nurse said that seizure normally are seen in the end stage of the disease. She didn't know if she would have anymore or how often she would have them. Mom weighs 86lbs and not eating meals. She does take in what is called Med pass that is like a boost drink and she will eat a fortified ice cream. Even with this 2,000 calories a day, she continues to lose weight. The nurse was concerned that the seizure would cause her be real sleepy causing her to not eat and then she would keep losing weight. The fear was that she wouldn't make it for a few days. As we were leaving she really woke up and and was more alert. By dinner she sat in a chair for dinner and "drank" her meal. It is looking good, but we will have to take it a day at a time.

Dear Mom,
I'm not ready! I thought I would be ready for this day, but I'm not! I love you dearly and I hate to see you go through this, but I'm not ready to say goodbye!