Mom,
Today while I was taking my nap, I had a dream about you. You weren't as sick as you are now. You bought gifts for the boys and where playing with them. I woke up crying cause you will never have this opportunity!
I get so mad that you aren't here to be there for the boys and me. Everyone else has such strong family support but you where my support. At times I feel so alone. In times of need I thought my family would pull through for me and Justin and be more supportive, but maybe I'm being selfish. I feel as though everyone just turns there back and says it's not my problem or I'm sure everything is fine. But it's not fine! They ask how you are, but I think they ask just to be nice. I am lucky to have friends that have been their for me! I never thought that I had to rely more on my friends than my family! It's really sad. I know how disappointed you would be.
Let me just say It's Not Fair! I ask God daily why you, why me! I wish thing were different and I hope my kids never have to go through this. At least there will be three of them and hopefully can support each other through something like this.
Miss you and love you lots!