Starting a new tradition

Today was mom's birthday. She would have been 65 today! The boys and I bought balloons to put out on her grave site. We also had a picnic lunch while we were there. It's a new tradition that I would like to start. It was nearly 100 degrees outside, so it didn't last long. Maybe next year we might just do cupcakes! Happy birthday to the most influential person in my life and the most wonderful mother there ever was. I hope to be half the mom you were. Love you and miss you everyday.

i dream of you!

Last night I had a dream about you. I dreamt that I was remembering you before you were sick. I remembered your face and your hands, that I held between my hands. I felt the warmth of you skin. I closed my eyes and I squeezed you hands tighter! I didn't want the moment to go! I woke up trying to remember her before she got really sick. I feel like time skipped until she got bad. Did I call her daily, what did we talk about? Did I visit her? I hate having that void.

Happy V-day!

If roses grow in heaven, lord, then pick a bunch for me. Place them in my Mother's arms and tell her they're from me. Tell her that I love and miss her and when she turns to smile, place a kiss upon her cheek and hold her for awhile. Happy Valentines Day Mom! I miss you so very much!